Janice Wilson

It’s after the holidays, and I’m into creating more love in a different way. Guess that’s why I love the holidays so much. The world supports those feelings of LOVE, everywhere you go. Now, it’s a different kind of energy. It feels like I have to make more of an effort to create the loving experiences that I want.
Words have energy. I started this 45 day money challenge and it seemed very easy at first. Then the holidays came and I was just loving, loving, loving. But now, I feel the need to realign with supply/money. So I decided to take out the word “make” from the affirmation ……Love what I do and the money I “make” to read “Love what I do and the money I “receive.”
The energy around the word receive feels peaceful, at ease, and more open. It has less struggle attached to it and makes me feel open and happy. Someone asked me what my New Year’s Resolution was this year. For the first time, I smiled and without hesitation, I answered, “to be happy.” I was surprised that her reaction was, “that’s great.”
I thought she might think it trite. But the truth is, “happy” is why I do everything that I do. The love behind each of my actions is what brings me the rewards that I seek. “Happy” is why I write this blog. It’s why I started the 45 day money challenge. If you can come up with a better word than “challenge” I’d love to hear it. I would like to make this experience, joyful, loving, and open to receive all the gifts this world has to offer, money included.
So now that we have shifted the energy from “make” to “receive” let me know what is being presented to you.

This experiment is very interesting. I’m loving what I’m doing more than I ever have before. i feel that my heart center is opening wide. I feel a shift in how I’m doing my work and my focus is alot stronger than it’s been in the past.
The money is starting to flow. I don’t have the need to go out and spend money right now. Which I find curious. I am content to work and explore. That neediness to shop has been curtailed. It’s as if the love for what I’m doing is filling my gas tank so I don’t have that yearning to fill it another way.
I’m beginning to see that the more I come from my heart center in making decisions about what I’m going to do next the more fulfilled and rewarding my results are. The more enjoyable all of my work tasks are. I also have gained a stronger momentum in moving forward without the burden that resistance has often put upon me. Every decision I’ve made in the last three weeks has come from my heart center, even if there wasn’t a monetary gain to receive from the activity.
I feel the first chakra of my body growing stronger and more open. Instead of being closed and fearful, I feel a surge of excitement and warmth radiating through the lower part of my body. There’s a knowingness that is blanketing my being and it feels free.
It’s easier to take one step at a time without needing to know what the results will be. Yet each activity that I’ve taken is complete and fulfilling on it’s own. I can see a pattern starting to emerge that shows me that coming from my love ignites a feeling of freedom. That freedom allows me to try new things without being afraid, or worried about an outcome.
I honestly am beginning to see that the more I stay focused on the love for what I’m doing, the more valued I feel. I don’t feel rushed or pushed to make things happen a certain way. I understand what it means to “allow” the outcome to be. I have let go of controlling the experience.
I’ve stopped doubting the power of love to create value. Without this doubt, I have created a larger space for people who need my products and services to come to me. I’m not crowding the energy with unnecessary fears that push good things away. It’s a peaceful way to create wealth, without the struggle or the neediness. Loving what I do is God’s energy in motion. Loving the money I make is God’s Joy coming to me. I am learning how this expression of Joy is always available to me and is unlimited in it’s flow. Interesting how seeing money as an expression of God’s energy allows me to feel joy in giving and receiving products and services. It truly is limitless. Wow!

This is day 26 of the Loving what I do and the Money I have and make. It’s three weeks! Plenty of time to change a bad habit. I am happy to report that YES, change is occurring and it feels GOOD! I have actively been releasing and “letting go” of the “wanting” feeling in my thoughts and words. I am now at the place where I can “let go” of the losses. The being in my JOY is a choice I’m consciously making every second. Thank you to a couple of “angel” friends who so beautifully and graciously took the time to share with me their love. Yes, we need our friends, new and old to remind us of how beautiful we are and how joy filled life is!
Shauna Arthurs was so gracious and giving that she was able to see something in me that I couldn’t see in myself. Because she took the time to share her thoughts with me, I feel that I can “shine” my light even brighter. I thank you, Shauna. Hope you don’t mind me sharing your thoughts. Her compassion helped me to see something that I couldn’t see for myself. So if someone you know can’t see their own brilliance, take some time today and let them know. It turned my world around. You can do the same for someone else. You have no idea what saying good things to people can do for them.
Here’s what Shauna wrote:
“Janice,

I don’t know you well but I care very much about you…I want nothing more than for you to turn the radiant beauty you emit inward and shine it on yourself so you can just bathe in it and be joyful and at peace. You know that Marianne Williamson/Nelson Mandela saying about shining,

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves,Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

I used to read that and not get it - NOT me! I wasn’t afraid to shine nor did I sense any inner power. But then I realized I was indeed afraid to shine. I worried what people would think if my life was fabulous and theirs wasn’t…how they would judge me and how alone I might feel because no one shared that joy with me. After all, I held judgments about people whose lives were fabulous when mine wasn’t!

Here’s a link to a post this week by Jeannette Maw about the reasons we keep ourselves from financial abundance…she has had a whack of really intelligent and thoughtful responses so it must have hit a nerve. Thought you might find a gem or two hidden somewhere in there…

http://goodvibeblog.com/2009/11/the-problem-with-being-rich/

Below is a blog post of mine from some time ago when I realized, based on Carol Look saying that what other people think is none of my business, that it was really true.

http://breathingprosperity.com/blog/what-if-it-wasnt-you

And here’s one about shining:

http://breathingprosperity.com/blog/law-of-attraction-why-do-we-diminish-ourselves

I just felt like sharing…take what you will. Let’s help each other shine!

With love and admiration,

Shauna

Shauna Arthurs
Founder, BreathingProsperity.com

So let everyone who takes the time to read this shine their light on themselves and bathe in our own radiance. Just imagine sparkling lights, white lights, gold lights, blue lights, red lights, green…..purple……every where you look, they become brighter and more magnifiecent. That’s what I wish for all of you today…..be in that light. BE THE LIGHT! and yes love that feeling!

Yesterday could have been a very sad, sad, day for me. Our beautiful family dog Belle, who was our JOY and light for fifteen years was put to sleep. Yes, I cried my eyes out. Yes, I felt the loss. And Yes, I see her bouncing balloons in heaven with all the JOY and HAPPINESS her doggy spirit needs to express. I chose JOY to be my primary experience for the day. You can too, no matter what the picture might appear to be. Joy is the answer. You don’t need to ask anymore questions.

I’m halfway through the next 45 days of the experiment. Wow, time has speeded up. I am working through alot of feelings of loss in these first 23 days. Loss of my artwork, collections, memories, collectibles, furniture and savings. How do I let go of these feelings and replace them with love?
I must find new ways to move through these feelings so that I can be in that love place once again. (i really liked the results that my first 45 day experiment yielded.) Who would win? The NAG, my EGO, and all of negativity that said, “it was all a fluke. You can’t have love and money. And this is why. Life is hard. It’s a struggle and love only works some of the time. Or was my BEING, the I AM in me, the love in me going to start calling the shots.
Again, I had to make a choice. Did I want to play with grief, apathy, lust, and anger? Or is my commitment to love greater than my need to feel bad. I wavered for a few days. Even that didn’t feel right. Pulling the covers over my head has never worked for me. I keep trying but my still small voice kept urging me to do whatever it took to move through these losses and get to the other side. The love side. The good side. The place where happiness lives.
For the sake of the experiment I consciously made a choice to take the time to do this. For at least three days I cried on and off. I was very angry. I didn’t want to talk to my husband, or look at him. But each day I faced my fears, my loss, my anger. I felt the feelings and prayed for a better way. I meditated daily for an hour at a time in “letting go.” I learned that the pain I was feeling was because I wanted to have control. I wanted to feel safe. I wanted life to go my way. The key here is in the word “wanting.” When I “want” something different in my life, I realized that I thought I was lacking. I was focusing on that I didn’t have. I was seeing everything that was wrong with me and my life. I was experiencing limitations, confusion, and anger. None of these energies have ever given me GOOD experiences. But that’s all I could feel as this victim of what happened. I prayed for a better way of seeing myself in this experience.
In my meditations, I saw how much I needed to control things. How much I wanted to feel safe and secure. How I longed for acceptance and approval. I desperately wanted to figure things out. In my quiet time I came face to face with these fears and I had to accept that I had them. I learned to say YES to the fact that I felt these feelings. Saying yes brought these feelings out in the open. I no longer had to suppress them. Saying “yes” to my need to control actually made it easier to “let go” of wanting control. When I saw that I needed to feel safe, and said yes to my fear of needing that safety, I was able to “let go” of the wanting so I could “have” it. This halfway mark is my time to pause. I’m letting go, consciously every time I feel that I “want” control, approval, and safety. This helps me return to my Beingness, which is where love, acceptance and peace live.
Good bye Nag…..hello love! It’s not easy for me yet, but I will continue the experiment. December 10th is the day. I promise that I will continue to “let go” of the wanting consciously. Stay tuned!